Back to reality :(

Hi guys!

How are you all? I am a bit sad today: my holidays are over and tomorrow I have to take a flight to come back to London, come back to reality.

But I am just wondering: is that the real reality?

I mean: I have been living there now for 4 years and a half and still I don’t feel that’s the place I should be. Of course I have an apartment there (not mine, just rented) and I have a job but still every time I don’t want to come back there.

Especially now, I have been away from home in Italy for a year and I came back now for New Year’s celebration and tomorrow I have to leave and I don’t want to: my family is here, my friends are here, my home is here.

On the other side though, the love of my life is now here with but, like me, he has a job there and if I stay here we will be apart from each other.

Maybe the thing that I hate the place I work to is not making my life in London easy, but I am actually working on this: I am looking for another job and I hope someone will call soon.

I know that everything I just wrote doesn’t make any sense, I just wanted to say this, to write this to somebody to read it or maybe nobody. Maybe this is just my way to put on a smiley face tomorrow, say goodbye to the people and the places I love and go back to my everyday life, not knowing yet when I will be back.